cissi

I know that I can't hate you.
I know what I read from you.
I what I want and all I want is you...
I can't see without you all I can see is hate and torture....

Why can't I get rid of this feeling...
It's to painfull for me to handel...
I don't know why I say it this way...
I don't know why I am stille here...

No one can see me as I am not even you....
I am just like a gosth that no one can see...
Why can't I be in a coffin or not born insted of living my fuckt up life...
All that all of you want from me is nothing....

I can't see me myself bright again it's to hard...
I never gona be that person that you meet over a year ago...
I can't be that person again...
Not after that we have left each other it's feels like hell to me....

I wish that I have been some where else then here....
I can't see my life as it used to be...
I can only see that dark side taking over me piece by piece taking away the love maker machine from me....
I had my one wish and it make true but I want that wish back but I know that I not gona have it back....

I just hope that you are happy as you are with out me.
All that I want is to have you happy that is all that counts for me..
I don't care if I am  feel good or bad just if you are happy and bright that keeps my little fire alive it dies when you are sad...
I know that I am like hell to be together with I don't know why I am trying to get in a realtionship....

I know I had my chanse I don't know where I am going now...
It's not some where safe...
I just can't stop thinking of you...
You heald me and keept me warm and bright all the time but now I geting a piece of shit...

I getting lonley and cold for all the time is going to...
I don't where I am going I just trying to go some where bright but I can't find it....
I trying to see bright on things but it's getting to hard for me....
Why can't you see I am dying inside? You who loved me and still do should have seen that for a long time ago....

I don't know where I will go... Maybe.... Maybe my place is to be still in the darkness without any one who care's for me....
I think that the darkside is starting to win this time...
I don't know how strong I am any longer....
I just feel that I getting one with the darkness there no one can see me or hear me...

I am giving up on all the good things I don't believe that I gonna find my "prince" I had my one lucky chance but it's to late to say it I know....
I remember when the time where so sweet but I had my one andonly chance to get it to work but I gave it up and I don't feel like to believe in love any more I hade my one chance now it's feels so wrong....